Much Needed Vacation

So I forgot to add some good news to my post yesterday. We’re going to Orlando, FL!

At the beginning of January (when I was down in the dumps after AF showing up) my husband said that if I didn’t get pregnant by March that we would go again. We went two years ago and it really was the best vacation we have ever had. I thought I was going to be pregnant right now and didn’t think we would be going on a vacation at all this year, so this will be a nice treat. He said it would be a nice stress free time for us and I sure as heck wasn’t going to decline a trip to Disney! It was a pretty short time to plan a vacation and I am someone who needs to plan ahead of time/purchase tickets early. We were able to get tickets for everything and book our hotel room though. Yay! I figured if I ended up getting pregnant then I would still be able to go on some rides even though I would miss out on a lot of fun ones. My mindset was that I won with either outcome. I would much rather be pregnant and miss out on rides but getting to enjoy everything to the fullest is awesome too.

When we started planning I went off of my previous cycle that was more regular and figured I would be ovulating while we were there. That will most likely not be the case now. So much for being stress free and having some Disney magic to help me get pregnant! HA!

We’ll also be going to Universal Studios and this year Diagon Alley is now open!! Disney is my favorite and those who know me know I am obsessed with everything Disney. BUT I absolutely love Harry Potter too so I am stoked! I can’t wait and know that we both need this vacation.

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UPDATE!!

Hey everyone!! So it has been quite a while since I’ve posted anything so I just wanted to give you all an update. I have still been trying to conceive, I just took a break from blogging/vlogging about it. Since I am usually a more private person it has been hard posting update after update with no real good news. I just assumed I would start this blog out as trying to conceive and then shortly after already be pregnant. I realize it really isn’t that simple and I am coming to terms with the fact that my TTC journey may end up being a LOT longer than I anticipated.

I decided to just focus on my husband and myself for a while to see if maybe I would end up with my BFP. I feel like that might not have been the best idea though. I’m thinking that because I am STILL on the same cycle as I was when I did my last post in the middle of January. It seemed like my cycles were slowly getting back on track and my last cycle I actually ovulated so I was really hopeful. My last cycle I ovulated on CD 19 and it was a 29 day cycle, which was pretty darn regular compared to the cycles before that. I was so sure that this cycle I would either ovulate a few days earlier or at least around CD 19. That did not happen though. I have not ovulated at all this cycle and today is CD 58. Seriously, what the heck?! My longest cycle was 63 days (I believe) but that was a month after I had stopped taking my birth control pills so I figured that was normal. As of yesterday, my period is 4 weeks “late”. I really think that it is just my cycle that is messed up and it is not really late. I have been taking pregnancy tests every week just in case but they have all been negative. I may end up going to the doctor to see if maybe the at home pregnancy tests are giving me false negatives. One can hope, right?! Last time when I had decided to go to the doctor…my period started that same day though. LOL.

I will keep you guys posted if I take another test or if I decide to go to the doctor next week.

Are you ready to join the sisterhood?

Awaiting Autumn nominated me for a Sisterhood of the World Bloggers award. Thank you so much for nominating me and following my TTC journey! I am still pretty new to the blogging world (and don’t post near enough) but am thankful for the ladies I’ve been able to interact with because of this blog and my YouTube channel.

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First, here are the rules:
1. Link to the person who nominated you.
2. Add the award logo.
3. Answer the questions your nominator has asked.
4. Nominate 7 other blogs and let them know via comments. (I only have 4 since don’t have that many people I follow yet, I better get to following some more ladies!)
5. Ask your nominees 10 questions. 

My Q&A: 

1. If you could live in any decade from the 1900-2010s, which one would it be and why?

This is a really hard one for me since there are a couple of different decades I would have loved to live in. Anywhere from the 1950s to the 1970s would have been perfect for me though. Those three particular decades would be fitting with my personality and interests. I have been told on different occasions that I am an old soul and I always wonder what my life would have been like if I grew up in a different time. I guess if I have to pick just ONE then I would say the 1950s though. Even though I love technology, I feel like it was just a much simpler and happier time.

2. Cats or dogs? OR BOTH!

Cats. All day everyday. Crazy cat lady fo life!!

3. If money was no object, what would your ideal day look like?

It would depend on the day. If money was no object, then ideally I would love to be able to just travel all over the world. One day we may be waking up to go to the beach and another day we would be in Japan visiting the Tokyo Imperial Palace.

4. What is your WORST secret admirer experience?

I don’t believe I have had a bad one. Or if I have then I must have blocked it out! LOL

5. If you had a warning label, what would yours say?

WARNING: NOT a morning person!

6. What was your first job? What did you like about it? What did you dislike about it?

My first job was working at the movie theater. I liked the fact that I could get in free and could have free popcorn while working (I would eat it with nacho cheese on top and jalepenos). The people I worked with were awesome too. I disliked the fact that I would smell like stale popcorn after working my shift. Gross!

7. Would you rather take 1 shot in the bum daily or 2 vaginal suppositories 3x daily?

Neither sounds fun! Since I absolutely hate needles I would go with the vaginal suppositories though.

8. What’s the number 1 thing you want to cross off your bucket list?

Having a baby is the number one thing I want in life…not sure if I would say it is on my bucket list per se though. If that doesn’t count then I would say going to Japan is my number one.

9. Hot or cold?

Hot. I absolutely despise the cold.

10. What’s your favourite holiday?

Halloween all the way! I love the decorations, dressing up, horror flicks, and all of the candy that is horrible for me. Bridget Marquardt is my Halloween spirit animal (if you ever watched The Girls Next Door then you’ll know who I’m talking about). I also love Christmas too, which is why The Nightmare Before Christmas is one of my favorite movies…my two favorite holidays in one!

My Nominees

Brolly in a baby shower

Fit Bride Happy Wife

Ella Mariea Diary

Belle & Amy

The Nominee’s Questions:

1. What do you miss most about your childhood?

2. Tea or coffee?

3. Who is your favorite character in a novel or film and why do you like them so much?

4. If you could visit any place in the world, where would it be and why?

5. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?

6. What was the last thing that happened to make you laugh so hard you cried?

7. What was the last book that you read?

8. Do you have any hidden talents? If so, what are they?

9. If you could have any fictional animal for a pet, who would it be?

10. What is your favorite season?

Looking forward to seeing your responses! 🙂

Spoke Too Soon…

Some of this post may be a bit TMI…so you have been warned! LOL

Well, what I thought was implantation bleeding is actually EAF (EVIL Aunt Flow). WHY?! I wasn’t getting my hopes up, but I really felt confident with how this cycle went and felt like everything was pointing to me getting a BFP. Yesterday as the day went on I had some more spotting and it was getting more and more reddish. It was a very light flow though and I was thinking maybe it was still implantation bleeding. It was more than a few drops but was only happening when I wiped. Then today it has been getting more and more heavy as the day has gone on. As you can imagine, I am super bummed and a bit confused. My last cycle was 35 days long and so I wasn’t really expecting AF until next week. With CD 1 starting yesterday that now means that I had a 29-day cycle this time.

When will the madness stop?? Sometimes I just want to yell at my ovaries and my uterus…seriously, what is up with my body? HA. I am really starting wonder if there is something wrong though since we had such perfect timing with my ovulation this past cycle. This is probably my paranoid side but part of me wonders if this is my period or a possible miscarriage. I mean, how do you know? I wasn’t due to start for another week so I just feel so unsure. Like I said…paranoid.

I really do appreciate all of the well wishes and baby dust that you amazing ladies have been sending my way though! I’m going to keep on trying and one of these cycles it WILL happen.

Implantation Bleeding?

So today is 11 DPO and I am wondering if I am having implantation bleeding or just spotting before my period. I have been having a few “symptoms” that have led me to believe I am pregnant but am still not sure if it is all in my head. Then, late last night I had some brownish spotting. This morning I had some more and it was more of a pinkish color. According to things I am reading online this could be implantation bleeding. It occurs 6-12 days after you ovulate and about a week before your period is expected. I am exactly in that time period! I took this little quiz online just for fun to see what it said. According to the internet “expert” quiz, what I am having definitely seems to be implantation bleeding.

For some reason I am just not sure though. I have felt a lot more positive/relaxed this cycle and both my husband and I have felt like I really am pregnant this time. I just hate to get my hopes up and then be disappointed once again. I still haven’t taken a pregnancy test though because I really wanted to wait until my missed period next week. That’s the other thing…if this is actually my period starting up then my cycle day length has changed once again! Bleh.

Also, according to my husband he thinks that I am pregnant. He said HIS breasts are sore so that’s a for sure sign that I am pregnant!! LOL. I’m glad he can still make me laugh even when I’m stressed out 😀

I guess I will know in a couple of days for sure though! Keeping my fingers crossed…

Irregular Cycle and Ovulation

It’s CD 31 and I think I may have finally had my LH surge!! I’m not for sure because the test line was still lighter than the control line…it’s just so close though. I ran out of my ClearBlue digital tests a couple of days ago so I couldn’t test with those as my backup. Of course the days where I actually might be ovulating I run out of my tests. Such is my luck! Yesterday and today were the darkest lines I have seen though so I am thinking that these days may have been my best chances to get pregnant. I am going to keep testing with my OPKs and see if I get a no doubt positive though up until AF shows up.

That brings me to my cycle day length. I am thinking I must still be on an irregular cycle because if I had a 28-day cycle then AF would’ve shown up at the beginning of this week. I did take a pregnancy test today though since there was no sign of the “lovely” lady. It was negative. A BFN! I kind of expected this since my OPKS have been looking pretty close to positive but I just couldn’t help but take a test. My POAS addict ladies will understand! My last cycle was over 60 days though because I started on September 1st and then my next period didn’t happen until November 3rd. I was really hoping that this cycle would go back to a regular one but it’s seeming very unlikely. I don’t know if I should expect AF next week or the week after so I’ll probably take another pregnancy test next week. I’m still hoping we get lucky and conceive on this cycle! I have a vlog up on my YouTube channel if you want to check that out too.

Here are my test strips from the last three cycle days

Positive?!

Positive?!

Cycle Day 27

Well it’s been a few days since I did an update so I figured I better do one! It’s CD 27 and I have been using my OPKs since CD 11 and have yet to have a positive. Today’s line is the darkest I have seen though. If I have a 28-day cycle then that means AF is due to arrive soon. If there is no sign of AF by Wednesday then I am going to take a pregnancy test. Surprisingly, I have NOT opened my current box of pregnancy tests yet. I told myself I would wait until a missed period and I actually did it. YAY me!! If you are a POAS addict (like me) then you will know just how hard it has been to actually follow through and not test. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this is *the* cycle even though I haven’t been able to detect ovulation. These next few days are going to be grueling as I await the dreaded CD 1 again!

My test line from today looks a lot darker in the photo then it does in person