Yesterday I did a random little vlog on being thankful because I often take for granted how blessed I am. I just received a new camera as a gift and it was the perfect timing because I was looking into buying a new one. When little things like that happen, it really makes me think of the other small blessings in my life that I may not always acknowledge. I can sometimes be one of those people who will only think about being thankful during this specific time of year. Around this time of year is when everyone talks about “giving thanks” even though we should be doing this throughout the year.
So I just want to say that I am so thankful for my husband throughout this journey. Let’s be honest…they can get stressed out if you’re trying to schedule out every time you are going to have sex! Even though I haven’t been able to detect ovulation, there were a couple of weeks that I found myself trying to “schedule” BDing and it affected us both. We work opposite schedules and some days it can be hard to be spontaneous when our time together is so rushed. You want to make sure that no matter what you don’t turn TTC into just a to-do item on a list! If you’re so busy temping and/or checking for ovulation and will only try during those times, it is never going to go anywhere. Or at least if that’s what you want to do then don’t let your partner know!! LOL. Make it feel fun and exciting for them even if you’re just wanting to do it because it’s a peak day. If you do have a patient, understanding spouse then be sure to thank them for being such a great support system through your TTC journey!
I am also thankful for my amazing family and my friends because they are a great support system as well. They may ask a few questions regarding how things are going but I never feel pressured by them. Also, my husband and I both have great jobs, a roof over our head, and running cars. We complain about these things when stuff goes wrong…BUT at least we have them to complain about. So many people go without and then there are people who take advantage of the great things in their lives.
So even though I haven’t been able to get pregnant yet, I have only been trying for about four months. Yes, this seems like a lifetime on some days! It really isn’t though. There are so many people who have been trying for years and are still unable to get pregnant. I don’t know what the future holds and I may end up struggling with infertility, but right now I am still trying to keep a positive outlook. Any of you ladies struggling to get pregnant, try to keep your head up. I know there are rough days and it can be difficult so if you ever need to vent then I will be more than willing to lend a listening ear!
To end this random post…I am challenging myself to work on being more thankful throughout the year, not just during the holidays. I challenge you to do the same. You may realize that things in your life aren’t really as bad as they seem!
Here is my random vlog if you want to check it out 🙂
I was supposed to be visiting my mom right now but her new kitten has ringworm so we decided it was best for me to just stay home. I didn’t want to catch it and then give it to my husband and/or our kitties! I’m super bummed since I don’t get to see her that often. She’ll be coming to visit in about a month for Christmas though so at least I will still get to see her soon!
As far as ovulation, today is CD 19 and I got another negative test. My husband is still convinced that I am pregnant because he said he can just “feel it”. I think just last month during the time when I missed my period for two months he said the same thing though. As much as I am hoping he is right, I just really don’t think I am. Only time will tell.
Since I haven’t ovulated and don’t have much to update on, I did a TTC Tag video. If you want to get to know a little more about my TTC journey then check it out 🙂
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So today is just like the last few days…which means I am not ovulating. I have tested for the past seven days and none of my test strips ever came up positive. I am just going to keep testing and hopefully I will ovulate soon! If I still don’t ovulate over the next couple of months then I will probably see my doctor just to make sure everything is all clear.
I may be going to visit my mom for the next few days so if I am not posting updates, I apologize! She doesn’t have internet and since I have Sprint as my cell phone provider I am not sure if I will have good enough service to post from my phone. Once I get back I will definitely start posting again though.
Here’s my test strip from today:
Well I’ll get straight to it…I wasn’t ovulating yesterday and am still not ovulating today. I thought the test line was gradually getting darker and maybe I was going to have an LH surge but that still hasn’t happened. Today’s test line was pretty much nonexistent just like CD 11. I have been trying to test around the same time each day but would just an hour difference affect my results? Also, another blogger pointed out that your LH is lower in the early morning so maybe I am just testing too early or even drinking too much water on some days. I may also start charting my BBT just so I can see if I get a more accurate idea of when I am ovulating. I am still just trying to go with the flow and my husband and I have still been BDing even though I don’t seem to be ovulating.
On a different note, yet another friend just announced she is pregnant with her second child. Usually I feel jealous and wonder why so many people around me keep getting pregnant while I just sit here waiting. I am actually thrilled for her though! It took her a very long time and a couple of miscarriages before she was blessed with her first child. It gives me hope because I know how much she longed to be a mother and now she is going to have another baby. I know it may take a while and I may hate that it takes longer than I want…and that’s okay. One day, years from now, I may be announcing that I am having a second child and this desire to have a child will be just a memory.
At least, that’s what I am hoping.
Test strips from yesterday and today
Well today is CD 14 and I don’t have much to share since I’m still not ovulating. I thought the test lines were getting darker each day but after today I am thinking that’s not the case. My test line today looked pretty darn similar to yesterday’s. You just gotta love confusing ovulation test strips!
Here’s a pic from today’s though:
Also, I just love this meme because my husband will always ask me if I’ve peed on my stick for the day
Well today is CD 13 and I am still not ovulating, but I am hopeful that I will be soon! Since CD 11 my test line has gotten darker each day and I am assuming that’s a good thing. Even though it’s probably just a coincidence…for some reason I feel like I might actually ovulate this month.
I feel like a lot of women who are trying to conceive can get down in the dumps if it takes longer than a month or so to get pregnant. I will admit, I am one of those women! It hasn’t even been a full four months that we have been trying and yet I am still so impatient. There are people out there and even in my life that it took a year, two years, or longer to get pregnant. Then there are the people who will never get to experience the joy of pregnancy at all. I don’t know my ‘fertility fate’ yet so until I have been trying for a year then I am no longer going to be so pessimistic about it. It can definitely be annoying hearing “just relax and it will happen” but I think it is a pretty valid statement. Unless you are struggling with infertility, of course. One of my friends was trying for months and then once they took a TTC break then a few weeks later she found out she was pregnant. I am not quite ready to take a break yet though since I feel like my body is still just taking some time to get back on track.
It will happen when it’s meant to happen! (The other annoying thing I keep telling myself since that’s what people keep saying to me)
Test line gradually getting darker!
The line is very faint but here’s a close up!
If you are interested then here is my vlog from today as well
Well today was cycle day 11! I tested and sadly I am not ovulating. I am still going to test for the next 6 days and we’ll see if I ovulate at all or not. I don’t really have an accurate cycle length since I missed my period for two months and was just hoping it was a 28 day cycle. Maybe one of the tests will come up positive on one of the remaining six days but if not then I’ll just wait for my next period to get an exact number for my cycle length.
Also, I just want to say thanks to my subscribers…all 4 of you! I know this can be a tough journey and it’s nice to have some ladies who I can relate to. I enjoy reading your posts and I wish you all luck on your journey from TTC to pregnancy!
If you want to check out the most recent video regarding CD 11, here it is: