Some of this post may be a bit TMI…so you have been warned! LOL
Well, what I thought was implantation bleeding is actually EAF (EVIL Aunt Flow). WHY?! I wasn’t getting my hopes up, but I really felt confident with how this cycle went and felt like everything was pointing to me getting a BFP. Yesterday as the day went on I had some more spotting and it was getting more and more reddish. It was a very light flow though and I was thinking maybe it was still implantation bleeding. It was more than a few drops but was only happening when I wiped. Then today it has been getting more and more heavy as the day has gone on. As you can imagine, I am super bummed and a bit confused. My last cycle was 35 days long and so I wasn’t really expecting AF until next week. With CD 1 starting yesterday that now means that I had a 29-day cycle this time.
When will the madness stop?? Sometimes I just want to yell at my ovaries and my uterus…seriously, what is up with my body? HA. I am really starting wonder if there is something wrong though since we had such perfect timing with my ovulation this past cycle. This is probably my paranoid side but part of me wonders if this is my period or a possible miscarriage. I mean, how do you know? I wasn’t due to start for another week so I just feel so unsure. Like I said…paranoid.
I really do appreciate all of the well wishes and baby dust that you amazing ladies have been sending my way though! I’m going to keep on trying and one of these cycles it WILL happen.
Today is a pretty “blah” day because AF decided to show her ugly face. I’ve been trying not to beat myself up and be upset about it but it’s really hard for me. It’s just another cycle down and I’ll be back to praying and keeping my fingers crossed that I get pregnant on this cycle. On the bright side, my cycle day length was MUCH shorter this time. It was only 35 days so I have hope that my body is slowly getting back on track.
It’s really weird because each time I have drank alcohol AF shows up the next day. I’m sure it is just a coincidence but it’s just strange that it has happened the last two times I have had something to drink. I usually don’t drink a lot anyways and have been drinking even less now that I am trying to conceive. For my November period I had a couple of Jell-O shots the night before and then this weekend I had a couple of drinks at my husband’s squadron Christmas party. I know I am probably being completely paranoid but I can’t help it. I am thinking I should just go back to drinking NO alcohol at all and we’ll see what happens.
Here’s to hoping this week goes by fast!!
It’s CD 31 and I think I may have finally had my LH surge!! I’m not for sure because the test line was still lighter than the control line…it’s just so close though. I ran out of my ClearBlue digital tests a couple of days ago so I couldn’t test with those as my backup. Of course the days where I actually might be ovulating I run out of my tests. Such is my luck! Yesterday and today were the darkest lines I have seen though so I am thinking that these days may have been my best chances to get pregnant. I am going to keep testing with my OPKs and see if I get a no doubt positive though up until AF shows up.
That brings me to my cycle day length. I am thinking I must still be on an irregular cycle because if I had a 28-day cycle then AF would’ve shown up at the beginning of this week. I did take a pregnancy test today though since there was no sign of the “lovely” lady. It was negative. A BFN! I kind of expected this since my OPKS have been looking pretty close to positive but I just couldn’t help but take a test. My POAS addict ladies will understand! My last cycle was over 60 days though because I started on September 1st and then my next period didn’t happen until November 3rd. I was really hoping that this cycle would go back to a regular one but it’s seeming very unlikely. I don’t know if I should expect AF next week or the week after so I’ll probably take another pregnancy test next week. I’m still hoping we get lucky and conceive on this cycle! I have a vlog up on my YouTube channel if you want to check that out too.
Here are my test strips from the last three cycle days
Oh the irony! Today I was planning on going to the doctor to get a blood test done to see if I was pregnant or not. Then, after 2 months of being MIA, AF decided to show up and dissolve my hopes of being pregnant. I told my best friend that I was being pessimistic so that if the blood test still showed I wasn’t pregnant then I wouldn’t be disappointed. I must admit though, in the back of my head I really thought my hCG levels were just too low to register on a home pregnancy test and I was thinking the blood test was going to give me the “positive” I was looking for. I guess the plus side of all of this is that now I will be able to track my ovulation and hopefully be on track to getting pregnant! I have some of the Clear Blue ovulation sticks and will be purchasing some of the cheaper ones off of Amazon so I can see if I ovulate at all this month. I am going to try to focus on just going with the flow so that I don’t stress out too much about it though!
I will get pregnant when it is meant to happen…that’s what I have to keep telling myself.
If you want to check out my first TTC Vlog click here. When I uploaded the video to my computer the quality wasn’t that bad but once I uploaded it to YouTube, it was really blurry. I was going to redo the video but didn’t get a chance since we have still been getting settled into our new house. I have a decent DSLR camera so I am going to mess around with the settings to make sure I have better quality videos! Any suggestions would be appreciated as well. 🙂